The Stories
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
jus realised... It has been eons since i last blogged. The last was during my bdae? Hmmm...
The other day, i was at baby's and i watched the video she made for me last time... Made me overwhelmed with alot of emotions... Brought me back to the day when i fell in love with her, the day i really decided that i wanted to spend the rest of my life with her... Those were the days when everything seemed so easy.. life was a bed of roses then..
It has been 2 years and 6 months since.. And although my love for baby has not diminished a single bit, there are times, when i really do doubt myself... On whether can i be strong enough for everything, on whether will i be able to be there for baby come what may. Sometimes, i really just wish, that things will be much simpler. There will only the the 2 of us. No parents, no families, no irritating siblings.. But i know that is not possible. So i have to learn to adapt. Baby too, has been learning to adapt. But its tough, for both her and me. Parents are just being as irritating as they can. Baby is still as uncomfortable with my family as compared to day 1. Its really much easier said than done. Sigh... Sometimes, i just hope, our relationship won't be so full of quarrels and arguments. I just hope that sometimes, i get what i want, and you get what i want.. I hope for a peaceful relationship... No silly arguments when i stay out late, or you stay out late. I know we argue, cos we care for each other. Wanting each other to have ample rest.. But..........
Baby, i know that recently, i have been out for alot of guys talk. You might think it is unnecessary.. But, to me, it really helps.. I cant say too much abt work to you, cos its a matter of fact that you won't understand what i am saying.. (like when u tell me abt ur work, i don't understand as well) I only have these bunch of friends, who can relate to my working life. They understand how it works in our workplace... Sometimes, i really just want some alone time with them, to talk everything out, vent everything out, so i can feel better, and work better. i just hope you understand...
2 yrs and 6 months le... i jus hope everything will go smoothly... i really need to save more money, work more on photography, to earn more... my bro and i are discussing on taking on more wedding shoots, to earn some extra buck... i really want to go for a holiday by this year end.. but judging by my finances now, i dun think, i can... i'm sorry baby...
P/S Baby, i know i'm being irritating when it comes to this.. but, i really, really love it when you take out your hp and take videos of yourself... it just motivates me, even more... I know i'm a very naughty bf... but... that's just me? I'm always being myself when i'm with you...
Love you baby.. Hugs..
Photography-love (L)
