The Stories
Saturday, August 16, 2008
baby.. ndp is finally over.. i can finally spend saturdays with you le.. =) so happy. =) haha..
been quite some time since i could enjoy the saturdays with you..
sometimes, i really wish i can do more.. it really pains me, to see you and your family in such a situation.. i hate myself for not being able to offer any form of help. i hate myself for not being able to give you a proper house.. i hate myself for me not being able to take good care of you although i have promised you. if i could take good care of you, you wouldn't need to worry about having a roof over your head.
sometimes i just hope, i'm in the position to help. in the position to do almost everything you need. to give you everything you want. but i really cant.. and i hate myself for that. i asked myself this. why is the world so unfair? why must the kind and good people always have to go through some sort of suffering when those arrogant people can just have a life everybody else yearn for?
i really want to give you more. but i don't know how.
i really want to provide you more, but i don't know how.
i really want to do more for you and your family, but i don't know how, and i am incapable of doing so.
everything i hug you in my embrace, i think about our future. thinking of how i am going to provide for you in the future.
all these things trouble me. i am always afraid. that i will never have enough money, to get a house, give you a wedding ceremony that is unforgettable.
i don't know how, but i must learn how.
i don't know how, but i must do it.
i love you baby.
muacks.
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