The Stories
Monday, August 04, 2008
I ask myself.. Have i not done enough? Have i not sacrificed enough? Have i not made u feel welcome enough? If not, then why, why, when our relationship is coming to a landmark of 18 months, you still feel uncomfortable with my parents?
I've been persuading you, convincing you otherwise, but somehow, one way or another, you just cant seem to accept it. I don't understand, what's wrong with my parents? When did they ever look down on you, just because of your background? They are impressed with you, having being able to endure all these trials, complete your studies, and now working a full-time job. They like the way you look after my sister, although i know that you don't like to do so. They like the way you will help out at my house, automatically, without demand. Unlike others. They like your attitude and character. But why? Why do you still feel uncomfortable? My parents have tried to make you feel welcome. But i somehow feel that it is not my parents who is the obstacle. It is you yourself, erecting a mental wall within your brain, blocking everything out. Always thinking that they don't like you, when its the direct opposite.
Baby, its time to accept them. We will get married to each other sooner or later. You'll have to face them sooner or later. Lets make it sooner ok? I'm split between you two. My parents, and you. There's only one of me. I cant be at two places at one time. True, i want to spend more time with you. But they're my parents as well. I also have to spend time with them. But how can i spend time with them when i'm always with you? Are you willing to make the sacrifice by accompanying me, when i'm with them? Will you please, TRY, to accept them, for the sake of OUR relationship? I'm pleading you.
Back then, when we just started out, you told me you feel uncomfortable with them. I could understand then. But now, its already 18months, it's time you should stop giving yourself excuses whenever i ask you to come over my place for dinner, or to meet my parents. There's a certain limit to everything baby. I've made countless sacrifices for you. I believe its time for you to make some back.
Baby, perhaps, its time to stop feeling ashamed of yourself, or self-pitying yourself. Its your own mindset that is blocking my parents out. Its time you changed that mindset.
Sorry baby, if i was very direct, or straightforward. But this is really what i feel. Its already 18 months.. And there's still no change in your answer whenever i ask you to meet my parents or to join them for any activity. Even though you have promised me so in the past. Please, honor your promise, please, spare a thought for me. Please, don't let this relationship go down the drain just because of such a minor thing.
I love you baby.
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