The Stories
Thursday, April 24, 2008
after watching a few episodes of the OC.. i cant help but think of these few questions...
1.) Am i controlling you? Controlling you from mixing around with the people you know, your friends? How are you reacting to this if i do control you?
2.) Am i always breathing down your neck? Not giving you breathing space? Am i always taking up all the time you have? Spending all the time with you, not allowing you time to spend with your friends? Again, how are you reacting to this if i do always breath down your neck?
3.) Am i too focused on you? Not giving each other enough space to have freedom, have free time?
4.) Am i always keeping my thoughts to myself? Not sharing my problems, my thoughts, my feelings with you?
I'm afraid you will feel that i'm controlling you, afraid that you think that i am always breathing down your neck, not giving you the space you want.. Afraid that you will use all these against me.. I'm afraid that some other guy will come into our relationship, and provide you with what i cannot.. In the sense of giving you all the freedom you want, not restricting you.. And you might leave with that guy.. Leaving me behind..
In fact, the more i think about it, i realise i'm actually at fault for what happened yesterday.. I mean, if i didnt control you, restrict you, force you to go to the airport to pick up my parents with me, all these wouldn't have had happened. You would not leave me in the lurch just like that, leaving the airport just like that. I know you feel inferior to YS. i know you feel inferior when my parents are around. But i hope you will understand.. If all goes well, we will be married to each other.. You'll have to face them all the time in the future.. why not start now? they are trying their best to bring you into our lifes. but you have always been restricting yourself, always against it.. always avoiding them.. that's why your relationship with them have been stagnant.
So what if they treat YS better than they treat you? So what if they treat my brother better than they treat me? All that matters is the TWO of us are happy. Its OUR relationship, its not THEIRS. Why let what other people's thoughts, actions affect us? All that matters is we do not let such things affect us.. We need not bother about what other people think, or what people say.. We only need to be happy with each other..
Baby, currently our relationship have been quite smoothsailing.. i hope it will always be this way.. hopefully, no one will come between us.. Baby, i trust you, i love you.. I hope you won't make me lose my trust.. OK?
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